“This is not a test. Listen closely. This is not a test."
But I think she's wrong. I think this is a test.
It has to be.”
Before reading this book, I wondered what the relevance of the title is. My question was answered not long after. This is Not a Test is a book of survival - not just surviving as to be alive, but a survival from all other nightmares. Six teenagers were thrown together in their school campus in an attempt to outlast the horrors waiting beyond the walls. There's Sloane, Rhys, Cary, Harrison and the twins, Grace & Trace. They are not even friends, but when everything's gone, what exactly do you hold on to?
This book centers around Sloane, a girl whose world shattered when her sister Lily decides to leave. I find it hard to connect with her which I'm thinking is the reason why I didn't find this book amazing. I tried my best to put myself in her shoes. How would I feel if I grew up in an abusive environment and my only source of hope was taken away from me? Betrayal and hopelessness are what surfaced. Still, I could not put myself to see how I could still revolve my life on that person. The haunting of Lily and her dad makes Sloane disconnect from the others, keeping to herself most of the time. In spite of this, I don't seem to find remorse for her or her situation. I'd rather learn more about the other characters than her.
The action part of story comes near the end, but I think this book isn't about the action nor facing the world outside. It is mostly facing the monsters inside of us; letting us see who's is about to win. I love the way that I can differentiate the characters throughout the books. Courtney Summers is a creative and passionate writer. I would love to read more of her books in the future, hopefully this time I would connect to the characters more.
I liked it, but I can't say I'm inlove with it. :)